Reflect on Self.
Before that lets hear what others have to say;

I won't disagree nor do I agree on their statement but it is time to do some self reflection. I don't deny that I have been a pain in the ass lately. I disregard others feelings and put mine first. I lost myself in the midst of having given the chance to lead. I'm no where closer to that even though I have been given the title of Acting Supervisor. Im lost in the maze of my own perception of being someone that I can't be. I was never born to be a leader. But I know if I was given proper guidance I might be. I used to work in an evironment whereby there are strict supervisors and managers. I know what to do or what I should not do. Let me put it this way. I am like a fish, out of water. Helpless and Hopeless. I know what I have put myself into when I accepted the post. In the hope that I can prove myself to be a better individual. But I FAILED. Their expectation is so high that I doubt I can reach. People find it hard to understand me and vice versa. I am such a person who take things seriously. I'm not smiley nor am I a forgiving person. Staffs complaint these and that. I have been there. I used to complain about authority being strict. Now authority being too lenient and we are hanging by a thread. We are always left alone to defend for ourselves. Maybe this is a different approach to make us grow independent. ONE WORD: BULLSHIT. I think this was never meant to be. I must be place back to my origins. Be stress in the correct area. Be stress with my nursing jobs and let the born leaders take care of the admin stuffs. Only if patients and doctors could be asked to work concurrently with us instead of working for them. I understand why my ex-CC like to flee. It is easier to pinpoint on others. I am beginning to see myself in him. Now I do is flee. That is his way of survival and now I'm gonna make it mine as a form of survival in order for me to stay put longer. I might as well be imprudent. Hate me or like me its up to YOU. Everthing is falling apart. STORM IS COMING AGAIN AND I COULD FEEL IT THROUGH MY BONES. WHAT DAMAGE WILL IT BE THIS TIME? I WONDER!!!!