It was raining and I decided to walk in the rain. I felt that the rain welcome me with open arms. I felt lightened and stress free. Feeling of happiness and satisfaction empowered me. Today is Christmas eve and I'm happy of what I have done earlier. Yesterday, my sis Kat accompanied to hunt for gifts for my staffs at work. I was confused as to what to get them and would they ever like my gift. This sentences kept playing in my mind over and over again. Kat suggested to buy them chocolates. We went to NTUC fairprice and get hold of those different chocolates. Today I came to work with happy feelings. I let my staffs choose their favourite chocolate each. Their reaction to my little gifts was too overwhelmed for me and touches my deepest heart. I swear I could just breakdown into tears. Today overall though it was stress but I overcome it with open arms. I decided not to let my emotions ruled my life and take each step at a time. I have to assist Dr Sathia of all days for excision. It turn out alright and ended with THANK YOU. It was a relief for me. I'm happy to help people out but I hated the feeling of, if I help will things get better. I did my best. Hoping that 2009 would be better year for me. Matters of the heart is too much for me to handle. Feels that my heart had been broken into tiny pieces and now its gone to the bin. Still waiting for that "someone" to ammend this broken heart. Not some Tom, Dick or Harry guy. For now just happy to stick to admiration. I hope that it would not turn into obsession. I would just kill myself of all I know, but too afraid to even do it.

I am a proud owner of my own Compaq Presario CQ40. Something valuable that I could call it my own. I will start blogging again.