I have actually passed the theory and practical on the 1st attempt. I am so proud of myself.
I dont know where I get all the strength from pumping the mannequin but what I know is that I must passed this practical once and for all and I do not want to repeat another attempt. Maybe my suppressed feelings of anger, disappointment and sadness that I have been through these passed few days enabled me to do so. When I looked into another aspect/ perspectives it did me good actually, as I managed to put my emotions into good used or at least I manged to vent all my feelings towards the mannequin. Before I start my practical test, I actually did a warm up, I pulled up my sweater sleeves and position myself between the mannequin's neck and the shouder. I felt cold and nervous. The instructor said that I actually looked like I wanted to prepare for a fight. LOL. I do actually. I complete the 30:2 5 cycles without giving up. I'm even sweating all the way. He printed out the test slipped. He marked it. I'm having tachycardia. When he announced,"YOU PASSED!!!" I shouted HURRAY!! Yes I PASSED!!!"
My instructor said you make it seemed that you have won a lottery. LOL.
I make a fool out of mysef but I'm too happy to hide it.
