What's my problem?
MYOB?
I'm having a huge arguments with my subconscious and my conscious state.
Why is it so hard to let go?
Bygones be bygones.
The problems is, I can't.
I let my feelings get to me.
Feelings of hatred for someone.
The feelings rises again after so long it has been buried deep within me.
I can't shake that feelings off.
The more I tried to ignore it, the more it annoys me.
Just like a pest that you have to get rid of.
Theres no place like home...no longer exists in my dictionary.
Recently, I can only sense sadness.
The moment I stepped into the house, the aura of sadness and depression are accumulating and it becomes stronger and stronger.
I can't overcome it.
My tears just poured down like the waterfall.
People around me tends to make me feel so angry and irritable.
They are so selfish and self-centered.
They come first before others.
They neglected how others feel and feel comfortable in their comfort zone.
They refused to show their true feelings as they are afraid of trouble.
I hated this "touch me not attitude".
Putting a strong front and always try to solve everyone problem has always been my weakness.
Try and save $ for rainy days, I have to say no to clothes, shoes, etc.
Neglected my own needs.
Thinking about others problems above my own problems.
Trying to make everyone happy, to the extend of looking or acting like an idiot.
Never give up on people even though they disappoint you a million times.
I can't even say that I'm disappointed in others as I'm far more disappointment in myself.
How I wish my family is not dysfunctional,
Whereby people tends to solve "the" problems before it gets out of hand.
Maybe I won't even have to experience this feelings.
Feelings whereby people want me to "MYOB".
And yah!!! why I bothered so much.
Go out and enjoy!! Pampered yourself.
Spend on yourself and heck cared about others.
Let them solve their own GODDAMN problem.
Life wasn't meant to be easy anyways.
History kept on repeated itself over and over again.
No matter how hard you tried to solved it.
My problem is that I liked to pour out my feelings in opened.
Nagging like an old woman just to let go of this hatred off my chest.
What did I get, shut the hell up!!!
I didnt mean any harm, it just that my heart has been broken into pieces and I lost faith in people.
People surround me is so despicable that you can't even imagined.
I don't deny that people are not perfect but a simple act of decency...come on man.
So atrocious and so disappointing.
Since I can't say a single SHIT.
My heart is locked.
All I can do is SHOUT OUT my problems here in this blog.
Cried my sorrows out.
Tried to be quiet to be more "considerate".
And guess what also got problem.
GOD help me I can't solve my own dilemma of life!!!
Human are weak and the worst creatures on earth.
When pushed to a corner, they seek out GOD's interventions without even trying to solve it on their own.
Well, I have tried and maybe you could say that I'm really desperate to make things right.
MYOB?
I'm having a huge arguments with my subconscious and my conscious state.
Why is it so hard to let go?
Bygones be bygones.
The problems is, I can't.
I let my feelings get to me.
Feelings of hatred for someone.
The feelings rises again after so long it has been buried deep within me.
I can't shake that feelings off.
The more I tried to ignore it, the more it annoys me.
Just like a pest that you have to get rid of.
Theres no place like home...no longer exists in my dictionary.
Recently, I can only sense sadness.
The moment I stepped into the house, the aura of sadness and depression are accumulating and it becomes stronger and stronger.
I can't overcome it.
My tears just poured down like the waterfall.
People around me tends to make me feel so angry and irritable.
They are so selfish and self-centered.
They come first before others.
They neglected how others feel and feel comfortable in their comfort zone.
They refused to show their true feelings as they are afraid of trouble.
I hated this "touch me not attitude".
Putting a strong front and always try to solve everyone problem has always been my weakness.
Try and save $ for rainy days, I have to say no to clothes, shoes, etc.
Neglected my own needs.
Thinking about others problems above my own problems.
Trying to make everyone happy, to the extend of looking or acting like an idiot.
Never give up on people even though they disappoint you a million times.
I can't even say that I'm disappointed in others as I'm far more disappointment in myself.
How I wish my family is not dysfunctional,
Whereby people tends to solve "the" problems before it gets out of hand.
Maybe I won't even have to experience this feelings.
Feelings whereby people want me to "MYOB".
And yah!!! why I bothered so much.
Go out and enjoy!! Pampered yourself.
Spend on yourself and heck cared about others.
Let them solve their own GODDAMN problem.
Life wasn't meant to be easy anyways.
History kept on repeated itself over and over again.
No matter how hard you tried to solved it.
My problem is that I liked to pour out my feelings in opened.
Nagging like an old woman just to let go of this hatred off my chest.
What did I get, shut the hell up!!!
I didnt mean any harm, it just that my heart has been broken into pieces and I lost faith in people.
People surround me is so despicable that you can't even imagined.
I don't deny that people are not perfect but a simple act of decency...come on man.
So atrocious and so disappointing.
Since I can't say a single SHIT.
My heart is locked.
All I can do is SHOUT OUT my problems here in this blog.
Cried my sorrows out.
Tried to be quiet to be more "considerate".
And guess what also got problem.
GOD help me I can't solve my own dilemma of life!!!
Human are weak and the worst creatures on earth.
When pushed to a corner, they seek out GOD's interventions without even trying to solve it on their own.
Well, I have tried and maybe you could say that I'm really desperate to make things right.
